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Coward

Published December 31, 2013 by sophiachandler

I was in this New Year’s Skype Call with my friends from school, and there is this absolute a**hole that I am so pissed about that feel compelled to ruin your holiday mood.

Dear Party-Pooper,

Your name means council protector. I think you’d make a very crappy one. If you don’t have enough guts to tell someone that you hate them, straight to their face, THEN DON’T TELL PEOPLE ABOUT IT IN THE CHAT. I know you’ve been hating on a lot of people. Including me. You think I’m lazy. Including my best friend. You think she’s hypocritical. Including the cheerful, bubbly girl who doesn’t reject my hugs. You hate her for her crappy teamwork.

Is that all you can see in us?

See here, this is your problem. You look at the negative side of people. You don’t look at the good stuff. The good stuff and the bad stuff together is what makes us beautiful. It’s what makes us human. You’re not perfect. Nobody is. So stop trying to find the cracks in the walls some people have built to protect themselves from the outside. Stop trying to curse them. Have you ever realized how much it hurts?

I’ve heard you bullying him, even behind my back. I’ve heard bad stuff said about me to my own best friend from you. Just because I didn’t dare to do that high jump didn’t mean I wasn’t determined. I’d fallen the last time, and it hurt bad. Don’t assume stuff you don’t know about me.

And him. I think you’re a loser, if you could whine on and on about how he got into the same class as you, and how he was such a f****tard. He’s not. He’s a nice guy deep down inside, but just because he spends the time on Facebook being annoying, doesn’t mean he deserves to be branded ‘idiot’.

I think you’re the idiot.

Let me tell you who you are: a bully.

Why can’t you take a look in the mirror and see who you really are? Why can’t you see yourself, the cracked, distorted reflection that you really are?

~Sophia

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Happy New Year

Published December 31, 2013 by sophiachandler

the title of the post = I’m unimaginative currently, so please bear with it 🙂

All day long I have been spammed by social media notifications all related to the same thing: HAPPY NEW YEAR. After fifty messages I found it to be extremely annoying, and thus disabled all notifications.

And I know this will be another not-so-important Happy New Year post popping up on your newsfeed, but I’d like to write about my New Year Resolution. I think everyone’s got one. Some people want to go on a diet and experience the Land of Skinny – not fun. I should know. I have a black hole in my stomach that makes me as skinny as a stick. Some people want to study harder and achieve straight As. Some people, like me, want to change their habits.

These are my New Year’s resolutions:

1. Stop Procastinating
Subtitle says it all. I really. Need to. It’s kinda annoying when I’ve been at the computer all the time for the whole holiday, and then on December 31st I look up and go in surprise, “Where the heck did my six weeks go? How come I haven’t started organizing my underwear/sock/clothes drawer? How come I haven’t started putting away my stationery? What have I done at all?”

._. definitely something I have to change.

2. Swear Less
I’m getting influenced by all my male friends. I hear and see the f-word all the time in Skype calls and Facebook chats and tweets. And I’ve started to cuss too, but I WILL change it.

._. if I will be determined to change it, that is.

3. Be More Sociable
I’d like to talk more to members of the opposite (and same) gender, is what it is. I’d love to make myself feel comfortable around everyone, instead of harbouring the thoughts of “OGOD HE/SHE HATES MY GUTS AND WANTS TO WRENCH THEM OUT ONE BY ONE AND WATCH ME BLEED” no, can we not do that? Can we please think of puppies and rainbows and ponies and unicorns and fluffy cute stuff like girls and boys falling in love?

._. unicorns aren’t even real.

4. Love Myself
I’d like to think that I am not fugly everytime I look in the mirror.

In this one Skype call, we sang the One Direction song What Makes You Beautiful to Kia and made her blush like crazy too~ :3 that was fun! and cute. and sweet. But then I looked into the mirror and I went, “I wish I was actually not fugly.”

I read this one quote off the Internet, and it went a little like this:

“Sometimes people are beautiful.
Not in looks.
Not in what they say.
Just in what they are.”

Granted, you don’t exactly need to have a heart of gold to be considered beautiful. What makes you beautiful is you being you.

Okay that sounded corny… but I hoped it helped, for the demoralizing people like hypocritical me here who don’t think they’re beautiful. For a little lilypad out there: you ARE beautiful. He probably thinks you’re beautiful too. 🙂

And I’ve come to the end of my post…. If I dream of any more resolutions I’ll update this post 😀 Happy New Year and all the best for 2014!

~Sophia

Random Music Shuffle Quiz #2

Published December 28, 2013 by sophiachandler

1. How is your mood right now?
Innocence – Avril Lavigne
(I’m actually chatting with a bunch of perverse people right now.)

2. How is tomorrow going to be for me?
First Love Picture Book – Gumi Megpoid
(A love encounter…. oooh)

3. What kind of person am I?
Lights – Ellie Goulding
(NO YOU SICKO I am not being abused. :<)

4. Am I loved?
Hey Soul Sister – Train

(Aw~)

5. How can I achieve my highest potential?
Dark Side – Kelly Clarkson
(LOL what. Show my dark side to achieve my highest potential?)

6. What should I do with my life?
Wrecking Ball – Miley Cyrus

(… are you even kidding me.)

I CAME IN LIKE A WREEEEEEEEEECKING BALL

I CAME IN LIKE A WREEEEEEEEEECKING BALL

7. Is everything really going to be alright in the end?
True Love – P!nk ft. Lily Allen

(song title says it all! the lyrics… another story there.)

8. What is my best quality?
We Can’t Stop – Miley Cyrus

(so obviously this quiz hates me. But Y U HAVE TO COMPARE ME TO MILEY CYRUS AND CHILD ABUSE)

9. How does my love life look?
Still Into You
(that’s sweet!)

10. What is the meaning of life?
Complicated
(“Chill out, whatcha yellin’ for? Lay back, it’s all been done before.” TO RELAX – HELL YEAH)

11. What do people think of me?
Royals – Lorde
(I SURE HOPE SO)

12. Do i make a good catch?
A Solution For Jealousy – Megpoid Gumi
(so then…. nope?)

13. How crazy am I?
50 Ways To Say Goodbye – Train
(I would tell my friends that my girlfriend died…. definitely craycray.)

14. Will I have a good life in general?
Summer Paradise
(YESSSSSH summer forever!!!)

15. Can anyone ever really love me?
Just Be Friends – Megurine Luka
(D: D: D:)

16. What is the one thing that will really make me happy?
Romeo and Cinderella – Kagamine Rin and Len
(My favorite song. Ever. It makes me want to cry when I read the lyrics so THANK YOU I forgive you for comparing me to Miley Cyrus :’) )
17. what’s going to happen to me this week?
Made In The USA
(In the US of A! :D)

18. Where will I be a year from now?
Little Talks – Of Monsters and Men
(“I don’t like walking around this old and empty house…” Unh unh. Not going to a creepy old house 😦 )

19. What is my biggest wish?
Wish You Were Here – Avril Lavigne
(It depends on who the “you” is… but befitting, don’t you think?)

20. What is the love of my life doing at this very moment?
Live My Life
(That’s…. nice.)

21. How will I die?
Story Of My Life – One Direction
(… not very informative?)

22. What will happen after I die?
Astronaut – Simple Plan
(I’d like to have an astronaut visit me at my funeral!)

23. How do my friends feel about me?
Brave – Sara Bareilles
(AWWWW thanks CCJ/Kia/Clarissa/Sam/Alex/anyone I haven’t mentioned! LYLAS)

24. What is my current theme song?
All I Want For Christmas Is You – Mariah Carey
(Oh gosh. Yesh. Even though Christmas is over who cares right)

25. What music will play at my funeral?
Chasing The Sun – Sara Bareilles
(WOW. THIS IS. ACCURATE.)

Things I’ve learnt from this shuffle quiz: tomorrow I shall have a love encounter, apparently.  I am someone who abuses children, or will, when I grow up. I have to show my dark side to achieve my highest potential in life, WTH. I have to become Miley Cyrus and then get on a wrecking ball, NAKED and then swing around. Only then will my life become successful. And my best quality is my ability to not stop and party like Miley Cyrus and then ultimately embarass myself. People see me as a princess/queen in their eyes. That’s nice!I am as crazy as somebosy who tells their friends that their girlfriend died because of freak accidents. Anyone who really loves me will always be a friend to me (how true this is, jussayin’ guys). And I shall be in the US of A in a year’s time so bb guys!

I am absolutely in love with these random music shuffle quizzes I can’t even right now.

~Sophia

Happy Birthday Kagamine Twins!

Published December 27, 2013 by sophiachandler

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Happeh happeh birthday to the Kagamine twins!

Rin and her brother Len turn six today! They are my favorite Vocaloids and to celebrate their birthday, I listened to Romeo and Cinderella on replay for two hours straight, which drove me to the verge of tears, because there’s something about the song that touches my heart deeply. Ironically, it’s not torture, because I actually enjoy the song! ^w^

Before I go, a big apology for my previous post which was absolute crap. My face when I reread it:

gross-face

I believe that’s Kristen Wiig from SNL? I don’t remember.

This was an extremely short post… but I’m kinda packed right now, so I don’t have much time to write.

~Sophia

 

 

 

Merry Christmas

Published December 25, 2013 by sophiachandler

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Merry Christmas everyone!

Did any of you guys get what you wanted for Christmas? Any new packets of air-dry clay (oh CCJ!), balls of yarn (hehe Kia) or Minecraft-related stuff (a certain Richard I know!)? Or a new computer perhaps? That dress you’ve been eyeing recently? A Starbucks gift card from a loved one?

I’m so very pleased with the bountiful abundance of gifts I recieved! There were gifts like the new Skullcandy headphones from my parents (thank you so much I love you to the sky and back okay!), gifts like the small but sweet keychain with my name spelt on it in alphabet beads that my best friend Emma gifted me, gifts like the somewhat touching small note that made me smile placed among the small treasure trove of items Clarissa bestowed upon me at the party last Saturday.

As corny as it sounds, Christmas isn’t all about the gifts that you receive, it’s about giving them. A confession: this year was the first year that I was actually buying something using the money that I had painstakingly tried not to use for buying my weekly frappes at Starbucks. And I enjoyed it, because, well, there’s something inside you that makes you feel good about using your own money and effort to get a loved one something to warm their heart.

I can’t believe I just wrote something that corny!

Speaking of which, did you know that Christmas is not the day on which Jesus Christ was born?

I know, I know, shocking. I read The Da Vinci Code a year back and discovered this fact. Apparently it’s something about Roman propaganda. I can’t remember the details, but it has something to do with Constanistople, the then Roman emperor at that time, converting to Christianity and mixing some of the pagan religion into Christianity. December 25th is actually the Roman Saturnalia in which everyone eats, drinks and is merry. Also, did you know that the halos of the angels are actually supposed to be the Romans’ sun disks?

I’m going to end my post here, but I shall leave you with some lyrics from my all-time favorite Christmas carol:

“I don’t want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree”

It’s from the Queen of Christmas – Mariah Carey!

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A very merry Christmas everyone! Here’s hoping all your wishes come true!

~Sophia

Magic

Published December 23, 2013 by sophiachandler

To say that Saturday was anything but magic would not have been right.

Because it was.

Magic.

Okay I’m just going to stop with the dramatic intro. I’m still on my #YOLO high after all my partying on Saturday. Remember I told you guys I would be partying non-stop for three days? I’m back! And ready to update you guys on what happened!

On Friday it was a gathering at Jason’s house. I might or might not have mentioned that. I’m just going to rush through this part because the real deal is the next day, but anyways, it was a bit awkward with all our friends around. Especially since they knew about it. I swear I tried to enjoy myself and have fun with Clarissa (remember the Cohens I went on vacation with? That was my best friend mentioned) and her lil’ sister, Elle. Who is too cute for words. I got myself wet splashing around in the wading pool after trying to get my slipper which I dropped in the pool. Then we played wink murder, which I shall not go into detail about because my performance was too embarassing to discuss.

AND THEN SATURDAY CAME.

“We’re goin’ at it tonight, tonight
There’s a party on the rooftop
Top of the world tonight, tonight
And we’re dancin’ on the edge of the Hollywood sign”
~Tonight, Tonight by Hot Chelle Rae

I think it was all a blur. But this is the party where I’ve finally opened out and stepped out of my comfortable, cynical, world-mocking shell for a long moment to take a deep breath and see the beauty of being human, of being crazy and normal and letting everything go for one night. We played Truth or Dare, and I let all my secrets evaporate into the misty, cool night air, not once stopping to turn back and bow my head. I hugged people. I hugged people I don’t talk to normally, people I’m wary of, people my once paranoid self termed as “hates me” and people I love and cherish very deeply (I’m talking about you Kia, CCJ, Clarissa and Sam!), so much that I point to them and go, “She’s my girlfriend.” (Remember that for your whole life, Kia!)

I think this is the first time I’ve truly ever felt like I belong.

Sunday was really nothing, but I managed to eat quite a bit for the buffet! I had a nice long nap afterwards ^^

Earlier today I had my high school orientation. It was nice seeing all my friends again, and hugging them to death, and learning that I would be taking up Japanese on the side together with Kia and a couple other friends. I got my books and stationery – the usual stuff. Nothing very new or exciting.

When I came home, I brainstormed a bit and… I am pleased to announce that I am in the midst of writing a new story! Once I proofread my first chaoter and stuff, it will be up on my Wattpad page. I’ll inform you guys too!

And I realise I haven’t been using my Twitter a lot lately… I’ll be starting to now!

~Sophia